growing pains

as a post 3ish year college girl, it's such a weird thing as life, friendships and just people in general change...

it's odd in itself that out of all my friends in college - I was the one that stayed in Kenosha...never in my dullest dreams did I imagine I would be here, we've been through our love/hate relationship, but this half ghets town has grown on me...i'm definitely not a lifer, for the time being - I'm content=)

The harder thing to accept is one of your best friends moving away...then she's start dating a guy that you can't stand - yeah that conversation at Panera was one of the hardest moves, but she knows I have to be honest and when I'm fake it's so transparent - I had no choice...

It's sucks when honesty is the thing that drives a stake in between you and your bud, especially the one that has supported you and loved you for so long...

What's harder is when you don't hang out, rarely talk, and then meet for "surface talk" dinner, oh and your other friend is invited for a buffer to try and lessen the awkwardness...and then you find out that her mom has cancer...so, now you have a friend that your not close with, but your heart breaks for her and her family and you don't know how to be there for her...

How do I go from being the one that was supposed to be there for her to the girl who doesn't know how?...gosh, this blows so much.

But, my friend, know that I love you like crazy and will pray for your mom as she has surgery tomorrow.  She'll be ok - I know she will.

love you,

mosh