and i have somewhat of a perma grin on my face...and i don't care if it rains...and I'm not dreading monday...and i'm staying up later and not being anal that i'm not getting enough sleep...and i'm trying to not be selfish... and i go to a photo shoot for work and instead of drooling over this hot male model, I settle for "he's really nice"...
oh yes world, this is the official announcement that I am dating (AND, it's really cool).
...continued.
You can do it, come on brain power...yup, you guessed it.
Today marks the whoppin', drum roll please....2 month anniversary of my boyfriend and I. Feels like longer (in a good way) because we got to spend basically a week vaca together over Christmas/New Years...
Anyway, this past week was not so merry. It's like the blinders are off and we're beginning to see each others flaws...it's funny how when you first start dating, flaws are cute and even funny, but honesty - you get over it...
For instance, my bf is very clean and anal...i am not. Enough said. Oh, and likes to explain things to me like I'm 5. (but the truth is that he is just so smart and normally i do need an explanation, but come on, give me a little credit)
So, it's been interesting because, again, we've only been dating for 2 months, so when things get weird and awkward...oh man...they're very weird, and I do not know how to handle situations like that=)
By the way, I have this wonderful quality that when I feel weird, I CANNOT hide it...I make the situation and both our lives even weirder and more miserable...thanks mom - did I get this quality from you? j/k
But good news - we had a "normal" "unweird" and "nice" night last night...so maybe the curse is over!
to be continued....
(I know the suspense is killing you, but honestly I don't feel bad - imagine how I feel.)
So, being a person in a "new relationship"...it's definitely a time of tons of fun, but also learning a new person's quirks, pet peeves, interesting facts...etc...you get the picture.
So, my bf and I took our first "longer car trip"...we had a 2+ drive each way...on the way up, we were full of fun...listening to Dane Cook, stopping for food, laughing, me reading the newspaper out loud... this all took place between the hours of 1ish and 3:30...
The way back was a little different, both pretty tired, recovering from screaming children (whom I love...one of them being my 3 1/2 yr old nephew. but even with unconditional love...I give myself the condition to leave) and dogs...which typically isn't a factor...but someone, not me, is allergic...
So on the way home..we left like 8:30ish, and it was kind of snowy...so bf is concentrating on the road and I'm just kind of randomly asking questions (p.s. I'm all about getting to know this fella..."what's your biggest fear?"...."who is the most influential person in your life?")...(p.s.s. I think I enjoy this game more than him...)
So I decide to make up this little test/scientific experiment because I feel like I'm "the talker" in the relationship and I refused (at that moment) to intiate even another sentence...so, without him knowing...I took a vow of silence...
I wanted to see how long it would take for him to talk to me...any guesses?
16 minutes! And, it wasn't even a real talking, because after 16 minutes...he turned on the radio, and then was like..."you can put on what you want..." =) so, techinically, my experiment was over...
Conclusion: i think i might have given him a complex, if anything with my experiment...now, whenever there is silence...is he going to feel pressure to say something to me? I guess we'll see...
